Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (HOCD) is categorized by intrusive thoughts revolving around one’s sexual orientation.People with HOCD suffer through uncontrollable and unwanted intrusive thoughts and images that leave them in a state of fear and anxiety about whether they are truly straight. View 3 More Comments . Homosexual OCD – HOCD Treatment. My self-esteem, for whatever reason, took a real bashing. But, if you are suffering from HOCD, you are not suffering from depression. It began around the end of September. It feels so real and convincing and i still doubt myself. He is so sad and worried that the feelings are starting to feel real. It's just another symptom of hocd although it might feel real it's not( been there, done that). Holyyyy Ffff, I have never heard of hocd, not even sure what it means but what y’all are describing has happened twice to me lasting for awhile then it goes away it was extremely confusing and caused a lot of sadness and isolation , but to the T this has happened literally I have had the thought well please let it just be bi so I can atleast enjoy women , even tho deep down I feel … One year ago (exactly! HOCD feels real to me, why would people tell me it is not? So it feels nice to write that out to a community that has dealt with some of these things. Even before puberty I had crush on girls, now its like I am suppressing myself. Hey peeps! I can relate it all feels so real :/ Reply. HOCD felt real to its sufferers just as my own obsessions had felt real to me. OCD always feels real. Anyway, I always get erections from girls. And very often the help that they offer is limited to medication, often anti-depressants. Hocd is starting to feel REAL, please help . Comment 6. This question is seriously making me OCD so much worse. HOCD is a real killer of your self being. There's a war going on inside of me and I want it to stop for good, not just a day at a time. This interview is with “Hannah,” who tells me she is ready to bare all (except for her real name, ha!) I hope this is hocd! HOCD can feel so real sometimes that I feel like i'm going crazy. You know what the real problem is, when we have an intrusive thought (obsession) about the possibility of being gay or bi, our ocd brain is trying to make sense of it. And i worry if i were to start one with a woman i wouldnt be able to commit myself because of these thoughts.. and i would feel complete guilt that im lying to her or im lying to myself but i know deep down i dont think i am its totally fucked. HOCD is the shortened name of a rare form of obsessive-compulsive disorder, termed homosexual obsessive-compulsive disorder, or sometimes called “gay OCD” or "sexual orientation OCD.". I've always been attracted to girls, in fact last year, I liked this girl so much.. the feelings were so strong, I'd go as far as saying I loved her. Doctors don't seem to understand. Jan 3 in HOCD. It plays with your mind, making you believe lies and doubt truth. Relationship OCD is something people most commonly ignore and blame it on their lifestyle, but the fact is that it is a personal fear of not wanting to lose yourself to the wrong person. for the sake of helping others better understand HOCD, that obsessive-compulsive phenomenon where a straight person obsesses … I feel so alone and I don’t know what to think anymore. Hopefully someone can provide some feedback that will help. Thanks: 1. It's based around the fear that one might become or somehow is homosexual, with this notion going against all rational and actuality of that person's sexual identity as a heterosexual. Join date: Nov 2018. Before Hocd, I thought I will be in touch with all of my friends after marriage. It was a sort of non-manly sissy feeling. I just didn't feel manly. If you are an HOCD sufferer, you’ve almost certainly read an article called “I’m Gay and You’re Not: Understanding Homosexuality Fears” by Mark-Ameen Johnson, a gay man with a history of OCD. It can ruin lives. It feels real because the fear is real. John Smith / November 15, 2013. There is a lot of homophobia in the world and it doesn’t take a heterosexual to be homophobic. Sometimes the hocd tells me i enjoy the thoughts and i try to push those thoughts away. It's like arousal it's just a normal symptom among hocd suffurers. He been seeing a psychologist had about 5 sessions now, he keep saying mom I can’t think he can’t sleep, he said starting to think that what if this come through. And now whenever I see a cute guy my brain tells me that I am pretending to like them but before HOCD I would be so certain that I liked a guy. Please pray for me, this HOCD is destroying my life, and at times it can feel so real. Why do my HOCD thoughts feel real? HOCD is killing. I would later learn that truly gay people may also get HOCD, but that they falsely fear that they are heterosexual. Now I feel my attraction is slowly being lost and my sexual identity the person I used to know is gone. 1. HOCD, ROCD or real feelings. That is what happened to me. HOCD is a form of obsessive compulsive disorder that deals with one's sexual identity. hal133 hal133 [10950] • • • • (10950) Jan 4 . I'm tired of having everything figured out and feeling that relief like it's all going to be okay and then not a day later....meltdown. It’s gotten over 6300 views in the last year and is my second-most viewed post after “A Closer Look at HOCD.”Last summer, I said that Hannah would be willing to do a second interview if people … Reply. Read three stories of people suffering from HOCD who were able to make real improvement using exposure and response prevention. The purpose of the present article is to explain why that article is both misguided and potentially harmful to HOCD sufferers, and to […] Again, duh! I doubt very highly that someone who is gay feels like someone who has HOCD. I have lots of gay friends and they are not panic stricken by their sexual identity. I am a 21 year old female that recently started questioning my sexual orientation. I never did anything about it though, because am an idiot. I just can’t. Of course, if this HOCD thing is real, then really anything anyone says won't help it will simply just be. It feels like i am in denial. Its a real thing HOCD people. The attractions feel so real. With HOCD, the real fear is that the sufferer is not certain of their “true” sexual orientation. HOCD, ROCD or real feelings; Forum home New posts My favourite threads Community Achievements Creative community Community stories. OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) is a psychological condition that hijacks the brain, forcing us to think unwanted, 'obsessive' thoughts and perform behaviors to reduce anxiety associated with these thoughts called 'compulsions.' In fact, you may have even considered suicide because the thoughts seem so real, and the possibility of being gay is absolutely horrifying to you. But it feels so real, so like I want the thought that my brain is convinced it’s not hocd. HOCD can be demoralizing. I … I don’t know who I am anymore. 29 November 2018 - 21:06. trance456. 44 minutes ago in HOCD Someone asked the same question “what’s the difference between hocd and denial” and both of the people who answered basically said that it’s not a real disorder, and that people deep in the closet forced medical professionals to create this term. If it did not, it would not be OCD. This morning when I woke up the idea of being with a woman felt weird and like non sense. It has to be hocd, but it feels so real. HOCD is a very misunderstood and difficult problem. I actually remember similar thoughts over the years that before the breakdown just came in and went out as thoughts do. I know about ERP but I don't want to share this with my friends or family and also worried that it will create images and audios in my mind. The thoughts feel so real but then as soon as I start to believe they're real I 4 November 2017 - 1:23. By the same token, some people with HOCD fear being gay itself. Also, if anyone has tips with dealing with HOCD, that would be appreciated as well, but please attempt to answer the question. And now it’s like I am just lesbian/bi, that I can’t deny it because it feels like I … I also suffered from HOCD for almost a year and i can understand you. I don’t care anymore, and it makes the hocd just feel so real. Eventually, she decided that she needed to become involved with a new boyfriend to feel sure about her sexual identity. I had a mental breakdown due to shocking marriage debacle and having a life history of depression. Though be aware … (Although, at times, you may feel quite depressed due to your problem !) If anyone can answer this question, it would be much appreciated. First of all, I am not a doctor and I can only tell you my opinion. It feels so annoying cause I loved crushing on guys. HOCD feels real? Since the thoughts plague me literally 24/7 like many other hocd sufferers, it is especially hard and i feel this feeling of attraction all day without a break since i am surrounded by women everywhere i go. by Megadude1337 » Mon Oct 31, 2016 12:03 am Hello i'm a teenage male, i've had HOCD for almost a month now, and i'll say it's one of the worst things i've ever experienced. I feel like this destroys everything good in my life and it makes me so incredibly sad that I could lose someone amazing because of this. Homosexual OCD can be … I suffer from OCD. If HOCD has left you struggling with relentless questions about your sexual identity, HOCD: Everything You Didn’t Know – A Primer for Understanding & Overcoming Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, a book by Dr. Rosen, Founder and Clinical Director of The Center for Treatment of Anxiety and Mood Disorders will be an indispensable and compassionate guide … Furthermore, thoughts and feelings about these perceived and real sensations intensify the experience, creating a vicious cycle of thinking, sensing, fearing, thinking, and sensing some more. I feel like I can answer this for you having suffered from HOCD and feeling like I have beaten it just from finding out what it is. It’s been so bad that he will cry to me that mom why is this happening to me, that I promise I am not. Most gay people I know have some form of internalized homophobia even. HOCD HOCD is a form of obsessive compulsive disorder that deals with one's sexual identity. I never get any from men. Recently though, I've been doubting myself, and I keep getting thoughts/worries … The irrational idea combines with the emotional fear and it feels real. I then started to obsess over thoughts that I might be gay, as well as constantly over any insecurities I had. Forum User. ), I posted an interview with “Hannah,” a former HOCD sufferer who had found freedom from her obsessions and compulsions through ERP therapy. Hello everyone. Since I’ve been getting so much traffic on my blog in regard to HOCD (homosexual OCD), I thought I’d do another post on it. The porn use continued. It's based around the fear that one might become or somehow is homosexual, with this notion going against all rational and actuality of … I can’t remember my past and can’t think about the future. For whatever reason, the thought of being gay (or even bisexual) feels like a fate worse than death…at least that’s how it always plays out in your head. 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