I just don’t think that way. Because I don’t want to die, I told myself to go to bed rather than act on how I felt at the time. I blame myself for the things i’ve done wrong in my life, it’s all because of me. I’m sorry. As of tomorrow I'm going to try to starve myself to death. 3) I’m broke. Not just the bad ones. I don’t need to be rescued. I work out, I have a "good" job, I think I'm not ugly (though I must be because no one wants me), I'm smart, funny, etc. “get help, go see a doctor or the nurse at your school” I’m not suicidal, but want to die. A lot of people want to help by giving me suggestions as to get out of depression, but that’s not what I want. I don't deserve to live. 2) My long Carreer as an Arcitectural draftsman and renderer was destroyed by computer drawing. We're not compatible. I feel like the most annoying thing is that I don't have a effective way to to kill myself. I’m not being stupid or melodramatic or attention-seeking. I can’t fathom the pain of someone who commits suicide. Take these related screening tests. Please PLEASE PLEASE SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER! I don’t want to die. “I’m suicidal but I don’t want to die,” read another. So I get it.” I told my friend as we were talking about Anthony Bourdain’s suicide. They kill themselves because they don’t know how to go on living.” – Taiki Nakashita. If you or someone you know needs help, visit our prevention resources page. Thank you. I’m in my 70’s and never wanted to be 70. If you need support right now, call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. Bipolar test Depression Test Anxiety Test Agitated Depression Test Depression and stress is considered as major cause of suicide or self harm.After completing this test you will find whether you have depression, bipolar, anxiety or little stress.In short this test is helpful for getting help, earlier from a mental health counselor or psychiatrist. God Bless you all, but it’s not the answer. 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